Why Don’t My Relationships Ever Last?
I will love you and leave you. I admit it. I’m not proud. I have tried to be more faithful, to stick around and make it work, settle down for the long haul and just be completely happy in one relationship. Forever.
But I can’t. I have a roving eye. I prefer the new over the old. It never fails. One day I’m fully committed and then the next day, the light just switches off, and I’m looking for something else.
I’m not shallow or unfeeling. I love intensely. With unrestrained passion. For those few months that we have each other, I will love you more than anything. I will wake before the dawn to see you. I’ll spend the day obsessing over your every detail. I will rush from work to see you again.
Until one day I don’t. The love just dies and I start looking for something else.
My latest relationship was a long one for me. Almost 6 months. And it was incredibly intense — we often met 2 to 3 times a day. I was worn out but happy.
And the best, though surprising, part Of this relationship is that it involved so many others. That was a first for me. I had heard groups were getting popular but I didn’t realize how popular. There were usually 20 of us packed into that room. And it was incredible.
Though they were strict about time. Just 45 minutes. When we were done, the next group was already warming up.
Then I started joining the next group too. And if I was really up for it, even a third. Though that was rare and usually left me too exhausted to do anything else.
But that’s F45 fitness for you. For 6 great months. And then, as has happened all my life, I suddenly lost interest and threw myself at something else. I took up trail running. And it’s great.
But it won’t last.
I’ve been hearing good things about Crossfit.